Miss Spider...

We have this beautiful garden spider living in the flower pot at the back steps. Her web goes from the flower pot up to the handrail of the steps. Georgia has really loved watching her. Miss Spider doesn't seem to mind all the attention either or all the hustle & bustle up & down the steps. The cats have left her alone too. I've been kinda worried they would bother her. In a funny way I've been thinking of her as our guardian spider, helping to protect our home.

Garden Notes...

We had a small vegetable garden again this year. Not as big as we would have liked & we are planning on expanding it for next year. It was a bit more successful this year. I've learned alot & hope to put that knowledge into producing an even more successful garden next year. We started with lettuce in the Spring but in pots. Let me tell you it was wonderful! So easy you wouldn't believe & fun to go out there & snip those tender leaves & have an amazingly flavorful salad. We only planted tomatoes, squash & zucchini. The squash & zucchini did much better this year & we ate a ton of it. I was even able to freeze some before the plants were completely taken oven by bugs & disease. Those squash bugs are relentless & quite prolific! The tomoatoes did ok but I wasn't able to can any like I wanted to this year. We are still in a drought here & I don't think I watered them like they needed. We've enjoyed lots of BLT's & fresh salsa though. So now the Summer growing season is coming to a close. Time to start looking ahead to Fall. I'm actually wanting to plant a Fall/Winter garden. Greens, broccoli, cabbage etc. I'm at least going to get some more lettuce growing. I'm also making notes as what I need to do to improve the soil for next year. Our ultimate goal is to grow alot of our own food. But it all takes time, experience & learning from your mistakes...

Vision Victory...

I found this guy Vision Victory on You Tube about a month or so ago. I really like his videos & have watched most of them. He's an entrepreneur & investor but a regular guy. I like his videos because he is trying to get the truth out there about what is really happening around us! He's not trying to scare you or be melodramatic etc. What he has to say is scary though. His videos are very informative & he backs his analysts with facts. He spent alot of time in his first videos giving background to the situation & basic economic information. Which is great because I think most people don't really know anything about economics. I know I don't. I'm trying to educate myself because I sure didn't learn about economics in the "education" I received from the government schools I attended.

Journey to the Darkside...

I've been on a journey of sorts since my last post here in February. It all started with of course the economic downturn (oh no it's not a recession, wtf?) I'm not going to lie. Things have been tough the past couple years with me being at home with Georgia. But at the start of the year things just seemed to be getting worse for my family, extended family & others all around. Yet it was hard to find information about what was going on. The government & mainstream media sure won't tell you the truth. So I went on my own search. I even stopped frequenting the blogs I loved because I just couldn't take seeing & hearing all these good & beautiful parts of others lives. It's hard to explain but there were & still are hard times going on & no one was addressing it. It was really getting to me. Also I noticed people weren't posting as often. I feel they may have been having the same feelings & seeing the same things as I but of course didn't want to talk about it on their blog. Which I completely understand. I'm not sure if I should really post this either. But I feel like I need to for my own sanity. And as this is my blog & no one but maybe my cousin reads it I feel like it's ok.
So since then I have been on a journey for the truth for myself & family. I have learned alot, been completely blown away. Have realized all the things my "crazy" husband has told me for the past 11 years may actually be true! Even found out things that he didn't know. Yes, I guess I drank the kool-aid. Call me a conspiracy therorist, etc. I'm not trying to be all chicken little/doom & gloom but I truly feel that we are heading into an extremely hard time for our country & the world economically. Possibly an economic collapse in the U.S., another great depression. I know it's completely unbelieveable, I can't even imagine it! I'm still trying wrap my mind around WHAT IT WILL REALLY MEAN for us if the stock market crashes & our economy collapses. Most of us have only known the good times in this country/world so we have no idea what it was like during the great depression. Yes we've heard stories & have even read about it but we do not know. We always think ~oh, that was so long ago nothing like that could ever happen to us, not here, not now. Well if you just look at history it happens all the time to all of the great empires, ie; Rome. I don't think it's the end of the world/apocalypse but it's going to be "the end of the world as we know it". (sorry that R.E.M. song always comes into my head when I start thinking about all this) I won't go into all of my beliefs, for there are more issues other than economic. My mind is spinning so I know I will not be coherent. Plus there are so many much more intelligent people out there that have it all straight & can explain things. But I will say that I have read & seen so much evidence for the collapse happening I don't think there is anyway around it. No not just a bunch of conspiracy b.s. but real happenings, meetings of congress, the federal reserve, economic analysts & forecasters. All mainstream, all right in front of our face yet hidden. There are so many people out there that have great info for people like me, that want to try to find out the truth & prepare the best we can. I'm not turning my blog into a conspiracy/survivalist blog but I do want to eventually post links to some things I've found on this journey. It's been long & convoluted journey down different paths but with all it's twists & turns it has lead to one end. I don't know, maybe I'm crazy I'm sure lots of people would say that. I hope I'm wrong only time will tell...

Musings on Tasha Tudor...

I wish I had known Tasha Tudor's work as a child. For I believe her drawings & books would have helped to make my childhood a little magical. But so happy to have found her as an adult! She has really helped to inspire me to bring that magic into my family's life now. I actually only heard of her about 7 years ago in Rosemary Gladstar's Family Herbal. (I love Rosemary Gladstar but that's another post) I found that excerpt about Tasha Tudor "Living Her Dream" so interesting & wanted to learn more about her. But that didn't happen until the past 1-2 years. I finally sought out her books from the library for Georgia. Unfortunately my library only has a few of her books but Georgia really loved them. The pictures are so fascinating to little ones & to adults as well. I was lost in the world she created.

She has now passed away in June of this year at the age of 92. So I finally requested from the library some books about her life. She was such a fascinating woman. She really created her own world & lived in another time. In the book ~The Private World of Tasha Tudor~ she talks a little about how people see her through "rose colored glasses" because of the way she lives. But that she's human just like everyone else & has her "darkside" etc. I admire her because she truly created her own special world around herself & lived her dream. I hope to one day live my own dream. I do in my head but I want to be able to make my dreams come alive in my surroundings as Tasha Tudor did. Rosemary Gladstar said she would quote Thoreau~"If one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours". Tasha Tudor is an inspiration to live your dream.

I feel like quite a few of my family members & I have this quality inside to create our own special world. We don't quite fit in this world, this time. I think we've all tried at different times but have failed. We are meant to find our own special way...

Wildwood Mama...

I just wanted to dedicate this PJ Harvey song to my dear cousin Laura aka Wildwood Mama (Drum Circle Deva) I love you! For that horrible dentist! WHO THE F**K!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f0IfAFCcGIA

Tasha Tudor...

I have a long post I want to do on Tasha Tudor. But I came upon this picture of her holding her sweet babe, nursing. I had to post it! I have only seen pictures of her as an old woman & I wondered what she was like when she was young. When I found this pic I can't tell you how happy I was. To me this pic just says it all! She is so inspiring! I will write more later...

Out of the mouths of babes...

I was holding Georgia in my lap tonight. She was snuggled under my shirt. She seems to love this position the past few months. I think she has stretched out every shirt I own. Her birthday is coming up in October so we've been talking about it lately. But tonight I started talking to her about how she grew in my tummy etc. And I asked her if she remembered. She said yes. The I started talking about when she was born & if she remembered it. She said she was stuck & I was trying to pull her out. I said I was trying to push her out. She said yes & then looked out of my shirt to the window & said she was trying to go through the window & daddy was trying to pull her out. I am in awe! I had to post this to have a record! My sweet girl remembers! I know she does! She is just now able to put it in to words. I didn't put the idea in her head of being stuck or going through anything...She remembers! I am always impressed by what she remembers & will talk about. But this is truly amazing! So beautiful...

Hello...

I am back in an attempt to revive this blog. I can't believe it's almost the end of August & my last post was in February! I can't catch up but I will try to start where I'm at. My dear cousin has inspired me. I think about posting everyday but for some reason I don't. I think it has to do with the idea I need to post with a pic., something happy or some such perfectionist crap. I just need to post what's on my mind Who cares if it's pessimisstic, down etc. I just need to post. So we shall see...Who knows if I'll keep this up. I'm horrible at following through...